I have had that damn song stuck in my head all day. It's scary when your past comes back to haunt you like that.
I've also been trying to decide what to do with my life. Not all day long, but for the past thirty minutes or so. It's hard to do because it's pretty depressing. All of the majors that I feel like I could actually do something with require scary courses. Like calculus-based physics and computer programming. Considering my experiences with beginner's chemistry last year (problem sets at 2 in the morning, cramming for exams that you know you'll fail, and a constant stream of tears) I'm not sure if I'm up for all these "hard core" classes. Now I understand why Oskar doesn't want to come to Cornell (on a much smaller scale). It's like you're diving head long into the unknown. All of these classes are just words on a page until you actually get there. And then you can't get out. And you're trapped in a tiny box-world of numbers and calculations and soulless knowledge.
I think I'm just going to dive right into environmental engineering anyway. I won't flunk out of Cornell ("failure" is not in the Passmore vocabulary; "damn close to failure" is, but not "failure), I'll just get a pathetic GPA and pray that someone hires me. And even if I end up living in a shitty apartment, working at McDonalds, living off of the dollar menu at Wendy's, I'll be okay with that. As long as I have friends there with me. Or Oskar. Or both. That would be a really good life.
Tree-hugger majors, here I come! *clicks heels together*
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3 comments:
This is my favorite post so far.
Just know this: I'll stick with you as long as you want me to, even if it means forever (that would be pretty nice).
... but programming is fun! :D
Awesome. Good to have you.
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