I'm sad. You're sad. We're all sad, or at least we should be.

Of the 6 or 7 really really terrible points in my life, this week has been on of them. Between the 4 months of sleep deprivation, two feet of snow (in April!), having to retype a 6 page essay that I had been working on all weekend and couldn't find on my laptop Monday morning, Virginia Tech, fudging a chimes concert so badly that I've pretty much lost all hope of being chosen, more snow, and the sub-mediocre grades that I've been getting all semester, it all came crumbling down. After a series of mini-break downs which culminated with me smashing my cell phone into the ground and breaking it, I've decided that this should never happen to anyone ever again. I haven't figured out how to fix the situation, but I've come up with a list of things to NOT do.

Things to Avoid When You're at/on the Verge of Mental Collapse:

1) Facebook Photos: unless you're in them, don't even go there. You may show up with good intentions, thinking that the smiling faces of your friends back home will provide some support. They won't. They will only make you feel unaccomplished and alone.

2) Couping up in your Room and Refusing to Answer your Door: it might be hard, but it really helps to be around people. Really. Even a few moments of chatter with a stranger can work wonders.

3) Compulsive Eating: sometimes eating an entire package of Fig Newtons is not the answer. Rarely... but sometimes.

4) Denying yourself Free Time: I am the product of two engineers. In my family, to be unproductive or ineffecient is right up there with sin. This attitude was further perpetuated by a certain ex-boyfriend and only now and am I learning to let go of it. Writing, reading (for pleasure), working out, and taking walks were just a few of the things I forsook regularly for school... and now I'm taking them back. If that hour I spend meandering around campus while the weather is nice costs a few chapters of bio reading, so be it. With life being as short as it is, it just doesn't make sense that school work should come before happiness.

5) Tragedy and the Media: Shit is going to happen. Most of the stuff that makes it to the news is going to be bad, but don't saturate yourself in it. Which is totally what I did after the thing at VT. Which was totally a bad idea.

6) Forget that you're Human: I guess this ties in with the free time, but I always considered myself a robot... a lean mean learning machine. I'm just now starting to understand that it's ok to have emotions that change on a daily basis. It's ok to fail a chemistry exam or mutilate "Hey Jude" on the chimes or say something stupid and feel like a complete jerk right before you apologize. People have ups and downs and anyone that is happy all the time is a robot or a liar. And that's why everyone should be sad and understand why they are sad and understand that it will eventually go away.

So I hate to be preachy and maybe all of this only pertains to me, but that's ok... 'cause dis be muh blog, bichos! And that's how we roll around here.